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ส่วนเรื่อง major หนูยังคิดไม่ออกเลยอะค่ะ ไม่มี passion for anything at all แบบว่าเรียนได้ แต่ไม่รุ้สึกชอบ เคยชอบ history มากปีหนึ่งเพราะครูดีมากกกกจนอยากจบด้านนั้น แล้วมานั่งขูดหิน เหอะๆ แต่พอครูอีกคนสอน หนูก็เกลียดไปเลยอะ แต่ที่ตอนนี้รุ้สึกชอบๆก็มี psychology similar to p'kimjin's major(?), current events, biology แต่ hate MATH เลยคิดว่าคงเข้าทาง science fields ไม่ได้ เพราะคำนวนไม่เก่ง =*= อะค่ะ
I'm a bit concerned about you now, coz it seems like you have no idea at all. (.___.') When I was your age, I was so anxious & confused about my study too.. But its so obvious that nobody knows yourself better than you do. Sooner or later, you would find out. (:
When I was young, I needed to study abroad and I dully & naively chose a college that was so expensive and all my working-class parents savings were just being spent on my tuition. After so many months, I still couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what the heck I wanted to do with my life and I had no idea how college was going to help me figure that thing out. And there I was, spending all of money that my parents had saved their entire life, just for nothing? I finally decided to drop out and tried to trust that it would all finally work out fine. It was pretty crazy & scary at the time, but looking back I've realized it was one of the best decisions I've ever made. So after dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that did not interest me. I began dropping in on the ones that looked interesting instead. I studied a bit of this and that, worked really really hard after school to earn money, joined almost every party that could introduce me some things - some people new, went to museum, read a lot, learned to paint , learned languages, traveled, went hiking - trekking - climbing, went volunteering in remote area. I did things as much as I was allowed. Finally, I decided to drop school and started to work at 20. Because I found nothing in school could be appealed to me & also I didn't want to waste my parents money while I was trying to discover 'me'. I needed to work and support myself for my own sake. So, yeah I did. And I'm glad I did that. (: I've eventually finished my univ just four years later when I had time enough to do so. I studied International Relations and Clinical Psychology. I pretty much loved them though, but sadly IR somehow has made me hate politicians.. But all in all, I love what I've learned and what I was taught.
I dont recommend you doing things like that if you have any better chances than mine. What I really meant to say is that, do not afraid where you're heading, what should do or should not. Try everything at least once. If you don't like it, don't do it again. If you like it, do it well. Do it better. Do it your best for your own good and improve it every single day.
If you really don't know where to start. Which university do you attend to in particular? Go there right away and ask for some advices. Or, talk to your school advisor. Or, read some books that's related to your interest and future study. Some of them would help summarizing the lesson up a bit and see if that would suit you. I wish you the best anyway. It's not easy finding yourself, but I believe it's not that hard either. (:
Sorry I typed in English, my Thai keyboard's just committed suicide. Too bad. Too bad. =.=
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i don't suffer from insanity,
i enjoy every minute of it.